Today I started the next big craze, crochet-walking! LOL
In all seriousness, I started a new baby blanket today and was so enraptured by the potential it contained, I couldn't put it down when I got off the bus this morning. Instead I continued to crochet as I walked the 9 blocks to work. In those 9 blocks, I didn't walk into anyone or into any objects and miraculously, I didn't have any run ins with NYC's infamous drivers.
As I walked home in the rain, I thought back to this morning. When I got to work, I was thinking "Nothing happened, as I predicted!". Looking back on my morning and those 9 blocks while walking them in the rain gave me a new view point on the experience though. Those 9 blocks were dangerous obstacle courses in the best of weather and situations. They are scattered with potholes, people weaving through the crowds, cars racing to make lights and constant construction! It made me start thinking about what is going through someone's head when they make a decision to do something dangerous and why they choose that option.
Everyone knows, logically, that texting while driving is incredibly dangerous. There have been studies done that show that an 18 year old's reflexes are slowed to the same pace as a 65 year old's when texting and driving. Unfortunately, there are many well publicized examples of terrible accidents caused by texting while driving. People still do it!
Not only do they continue to engage in what they know is dangerous, they justify it a little more every time they engage in it and nothing terrible happens. They think "See, I told you nothing would happen!". Here's where my mind turned to Emunah.
That little voice that says "I did it and nothing bad happened so nothing bad will ever happen when I do it." is the yetzer hara (evil inclination) talking. It's convincing us slowly over time that we are in control of every aspect of our life and that we are better than everyone else.
After we make a decision to do something dangerous, we have to consciously engage in teshuvah in order to correct it. We have to acknowledge that we aren't in control, Hashem is. Teshuvah is saying "Even though I made a poor decision that put myself in danger, I survived because Hashem protected me". We have to have Emunah that Hashem is trying to teach us something in every situation we come across and that if we can only learn His lesson, He will reward us.